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Salty Lives - Unravelling Healthcare Through the Lens of Cystic Fibrosis

This is the documentation of a 12 weeks project by Ute Schauberger for the Master of Design Innovation and Citizenship at Glasgow School of Art. Salty Lives is an experiment into how design-led approaches might begin to unravel, interrogate, and re-envision healthcare by exploring it through the lens of living with cystic fibrosis. By investigating this specific context, its barriers, and opportunities, it aspires to also interrogate the organisational structures, services, and systems around healthcare more generally. It uses design research to critically examine emerging patterns of living in this area, to address and explore the questions they throw up, and to uncover and articulate alternative trajectories. Salty Lives is thus not only an inquiry into how we might live, but also into how we might design. It explores how design practices can be applied to reimagine the cultures, institutions and systems that shape our world.

This is the documentation of a 12 weeks project by Ute Schauberger for the Master of Design Innovation and Citizenship at Glasgow School of Art.

Salty Lives is an experiment into how design-led approaches might begin to unravel, interrogate, and re-envision healthcare by exploring it through the lens of living with cystic fibrosis. By investigating this specific context, its barriers, and opportunities, it aspires to also interrogate the organisational structures, services, and systems around healthcare more generally. It uses design research to critically examine emerging patterns of living in this area, to address and explore the questions they throw up, and to uncover and articulate alternative trajectories. Salty Lives is thus not only an inquiry into how we might live, but also into how we might design. It explores how design practices can be applied to reimagine the cultures, institutions and systems that shape our world.

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Ute Schauberger<br />

<strong>Salty</strong> <strong>Lives</strong><br />

<strong>Unravelling</strong> <strong>Healthcare</strong> <strong>Through</strong> <strong>the</strong> <strong>Lens</strong> <strong>of</strong> Living with <strong>Cystic</strong> <strong>Fibrosis</strong><br />

MDes Design Innovation & Citizenship<br />

www.uteschauberger.com


Ute Schauberger<br />

Design Innovation and Citizenship<br />

2015 / 2016<br />

www.uteschauberger.com


<strong>Salty</strong><br />

<strong>Lives</strong><br />

<strong>Unravelling</strong> <strong>Healthcare</strong> <strong>Through</strong> <strong>the</strong> <strong>Lens</strong> <strong>of</strong> Living with <strong>Cystic</strong> <strong>Fibrosis</strong><br />

<strong>Salty</strong> <strong>Lives</strong> is a<br />

design experiment<br />

into how design-led<br />

approaches might<br />

begin to unravel,<br />

interrogate,<br />

and re-envision<br />

healthcare by<br />

exploring it through<br />

<strong>the</strong> lens <strong>of</strong> living<br />

with cystic fibrosis.<br />

By investigating this specific context,<br />

its barriers, and opportunities, it<br />

aspires to also interrogate <strong>the</strong><br />

organisational structures, services,<br />

and systems around healthcare more<br />

generally. It uses design research<br />

to critically examine emerging<br />

patterns <strong>of</strong> living, to address and<br />

explore <strong>the</strong> questions <strong>the</strong>y throw<br />

up, and to uncover and articulate<br />

alternative trajectories. <strong>Salty</strong> <strong>Lives</strong><br />

is an inquiry into how we might live<br />

with chronic illness, but also into how<br />

we might design. It explores how<br />

design practices can be applied to<br />

reimagine <strong>the</strong> cultures, institutions<br />

and systems that shape our world.<br />

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4


Contents<br />

Part 1<br />

A Journey <strong>Through</strong> Design<br />

Here I discuss and reflect on my role<br />

and where I started, how this project has<br />

transformed my design practice, <strong>the</strong><br />

methodology and methods I applied, and<br />

<strong>the</strong> ethical considerations involved.<br />

Part 2<br />

A Journey <strong>Through</strong> <strong>Healthcare</strong><br />

Here I illustrate my journey through <strong>the</strong> world <strong>of</strong><br />

cystic fibrosis and healthcare, I talk about <strong>the</strong> context,<br />

findings and insights <strong>of</strong> this project, and describe how<br />

I got from issue to opportunity and design response.<br />

<strong>Cystic</strong> <strong>Fibrosis</strong><br />

39<br />

What causes CF<br />

<strong>Healthcare</strong><br />

49<br />

The <strong>Healthcare</strong> System<br />

People with CF<br />

57<br />

Working at <strong>the</strong> Extremes<br />

59<br />

Landscape<br />

61<br />

Appointment Journey<br />

Design Response<br />

73<br />

What if<br />

75<br />

Compass<br />

80<br />

More Questions<br />

Part 3<br />

Appendices<br />

Here I include references to o<strong>the</strong>r people’s work that<br />

shaped this project, as well as some <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> data I<br />

collected during my own research in more detail.<br />

85<br />

Bibliography<br />

90<br />

Image Credit<br />

99<br />

Life Expectancy Survey<br />

101<br />

Close-Up<br />

Interview Transcript<br />

13<br />

Where I Started<br />

25<br />

Methods<br />

41<br />

Symptoms<br />

51<br />

Experts and Case Studies<br />

63<br />

Life Expectancy Survey<br />

81<br />

Testing and Reflection<br />

91<br />

Expert Interviews<br />

103<br />

Impressions from<br />

Digital Ethnography<br />

17<br />

Design Practice<br />

and Approach<br />

27<br />

My Role<br />

42<br />

What this means<br />

53<br />

Emerging Trends<br />

65<br />

Life Journey<br />

95<br />

Case Study Summaries<br />

23<br />

Methodology<br />

31<br />

Ethics<br />

45<br />

Treatment<br />

67<br />

The CF Community Online<br />

69<br />

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Close-Up<br />

6


Introduction<br />

7<br />

8


SALTY<br />

/ˈsɔːlti,ˈsɒ-/<br />

1.<br />

tasting <strong>of</strong>, containing, or preserved with salt.<br />

“<strong>the</strong> bacon will be quite salty”<br />

synonyms: salt, salted, saline, briny, brackish<br />

2.<br />

(<strong>of</strong> language or humour) down-to-earth; coarse.<br />

“her wild ways and salty language shocked <strong>the</strong> local gentry”<br />

“<strong>the</strong> Princess has a salty sense <strong>of</strong> humour”<br />

synonyms: lively, vigorous, spirited, colourful, sparkling, zesty, zestful,<br />

spicy, sharp, racy, piquant, pungent, tangy, biting, informal, punchy<br />

(Oxford Dictionary)<br />

<strong>Cystic</strong> <strong>Fibrosis</strong><br />

People with CF have more chloride<br />

(salt) in <strong>the</strong>ir sweat than someone<br />

who does not have CF. Therefore<br />

<strong>the</strong>ir skin tastes extremely salty.<br />

So do <strong>the</strong>ir kisses. And <strong>the</strong>ir tears.<br />

<strong>Cystic</strong> fibrosis (CF) is one <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> UK's<br />

most common incurable chronic<br />

conditions caused by a single faulty<br />

gene that controls <strong>the</strong> movement <strong>of</strong><br />

salt and water in and out <strong>of</strong> cells. CF<br />

slowly destroys all internal organs<br />

as <strong>the</strong>y become clogged with thick<br />

sticky mucus. This results in chronic<br />

infections and inflammation in <strong>the</strong><br />

lungs, difficulty digesting food, as<br />

well as a range <strong>of</strong> o<strong>the</strong>r challenging<br />

and life-limiting symptoms.<br />

I have lived<br />

with CF for<br />

26 years.<br />

It’s been<br />

wonderful,<br />

if a little<br />

breathless.<br />

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PART 1<br />

A Journey <strong>Through</strong> Design<br />

Here I discuss and reflect on my role<br />

and where I started, how this project<br />

has transformed my design practice,<br />

<strong>the</strong> methodology and methods I<br />

applied, and <strong>the</strong> ethical<br />

considerations involved.<br />

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12


Where I Started<br />

13<br />

14


A <strong>Salty</strong> Life<br />

I have lived with CF for 26 years,<br />

and it's been wonderful, if a little<br />

breathless. I have also lived with <strong>the</strong><br />

healthcare systems <strong>of</strong> several different<br />

countries, which has not always been<br />

wonderful, but kept me alive. I am<br />

excited by <strong>the</strong> recent developments<br />

and new hope <strong>the</strong> future promises for<br />

CF, and healthcare more generally.<br />

As well as skeptical about who <strong>the</strong><br />

current system and its dynamics really<br />

serve, and whe<strong>the</strong>r it will be able to<br />

live up to this great potential.<br />

Anthropology<br />

I am also a graduate in anthropology and<br />

sociology, and for better or worse, I see<br />

context, cultures, and systems everywhere.<br />

I also know that our current systems are<br />

constructed and designed - sometimes<br />

consciously, sometimes less so. This means,<br />

<strong>the</strong>y can be unravelled, deconstructed,<br />

changed, and designed in a different way<br />

(Hill, 2012). Aside from my way <strong>of</strong> looking<br />

at <strong>the</strong> world, this background also shapes<br />

how I see and conduct research. The<br />

methods discussed below have been heavily<br />

influenced by ethnography and actor network<br />

<strong>the</strong>ory as an approach and research practice.<br />

Design<br />

After <strong>the</strong> last 12 months I can confirm,<br />

I am also a designer. I have adopted<br />

and adapted new ways <strong>of</strong> doing and<br />

documenting research through design,<br />

for design, and about design. Most<br />

importantly, I have learnt that research<br />

can move from analysis - revealing<br />

how things are - towards syn<strong>the</strong>sis -<br />

suggesting how things could be - (Hill,<br />

2012), something which anthropology<br />

could never <strong>of</strong>fer. Looking in depth at<br />

what is happening and where things are<br />

going, throws up fundamental questions<br />

that are both exciting and worrying. And<br />

I believe design is about addressing<br />

and exploring <strong>the</strong>m, articulating<br />

alternative ways <strong>of</strong> being, opening larger<br />

discussions, challenging and critiquing<br />

what is sometimes seen as inevitable,<br />

and uncovering and shaping preferable<br />

trajectories (Schulze, 2013).<br />

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16


Design<br />

17<br />

18


Design Practice and Approach<br />

The Design<br />

Outcome<br />

This project has been a<br />

conversation with design,<br />

citizenship, anthropology, and<br />

living with CF. As a result how I<br />

define and understand 'design' has<br />

shifted and changed throughout<br />

<strong>the</strong>se weeks. My thinking and doing<br />

has been shaped by work that is<br />

easiest to summarise as strategic<br />

design. And sometimes it was easy<br />

to locate <strong>the</strong>se concepts, <strong>the</strong>ories,<br />

and frameworks within my practice,<br />

o<strong>the</strong>r times my experience <strong>of</strong><br />

applying <strong>the</strong>m was very different or<br />

had limited success.<br />

Designing for citizenship means<br />

considering <strong>the</strong> broader application<br />

<strong>of</strong> design practices for society<br />

and its organisational structures,<br />

services, and systems. They make<br />

up our social contracts, or <strong>the</strong><br />

conditions in which society and<br />

culture unfold, and I would argue<br />

that <strong>the</strong>y can be changed and<br />

redesigned at both <strong>the</strong> individual<br />

and institutional level. With this<br />

project, I looked at healthcare, but<br />

worked with a specific disease<br />

as 'an area <strong>of</strong> inquiry, allowing for<br />

investigations into specific contexts,<br />

barriers, and opportunities, which<br />

<strong>the</strong>n inform <strong>the</strong> development<br />

<strong>of</strong> more generalised, systemic<br />

improvements' (Boyer et al, 2013:9).<br />

However, it <strong>of</strong>ten proved difficult<br />

to keep track <strong>of</strong> both <strong>the</strong>se levels<br />

- to reflect meaningfully on <strong>the</strong><br />

impact <strong>of</strong> one on <strong>the</strong> o<strong>the</strong>r, and<br />

to potentially iterate accordingly<br />

- while still in <strong>the</strong> middle <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

research process. Designing<br />

research methods that <strong>the</strong>mselves<br />

produce insights which zoom in and<br />

out <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> individual and institutional<br />

level helped me to achieve this<br />

better, but it was much more<br />

difficult to also implement this when<br />

working on my design response.<br />

Still, I see all design as directly<br />

involved in creating culture, ways<br />

<strong>of</strong> being, and patterns <strong>of</strong> living.<br />

And I see no reason to not use<br />

design practices consciously and<br />

purposefully towards articulating<br />

certain values or formulating<br />

a vision. What Hill (2012) calls<br />

strategic design, <strong>the</strong>n has 'a<br />

direction, over and above being<br />

a set <strong>of</strong> tools, a vocabulary, and<br />

a series <strong>of</strong> projects'. For strategic<br />

design, a new form <strong>of</strong> design<br />

challenge is <strong>the</strong> 'vital, messy reality<br />

<strong>of</strong> taking a vision, transforming this<br />

into a strategy and <strong>the</strong>n making<br />

it happen' (Hill, 2012). Within my<br />

project I found it particularly<br />

challenging to transform vision into<br />

a concrete prototype that is easy<br />

to understand, can be tested, and<br />

iterated. It was difficult to decide<br />

how to communicate <strong>the</strong> larger<br />

vision within a concept, to narrow<br />

down what I need to know to move<br />

forward, how to test my ideas within<br />

my limited access and time-frame,<br />

and how to decide on <strong>the</strong>ir success<br />

or failure. I agree with Boyer et<br />

al (2011:113) that when working<br />

in this space, <strong>the</strong> challenges are<br />

'as much about vision as <strong>the</strong>y are<br />

about designing <strong>the</strong> transition to<br />

accomplish that vision.'<br />

A way forward lies in a different<br />

and more investigative conception<br />

<strong>of</strong> design itself, 'one not overly<br />

focused on problem solving, or<br />

pretending to embark towards<br />

a resolution with a clear idea<br />

<strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> answer' but based on<br />

prototyping and iterating. It is about<br />

interrogating affordances and<br />

making small moves that might<br />

shift <strong>the</strong> pattern at <strong>the</strong> macro<br />

level even when it is impossible<br />

to understand <strong>the</strong> whole system<br />

fully (Hill, 2012:). Design research is<br />

<strong>the</strong>n a practice where 'observing<br />

is intrinsically tied to designing.<br />

Without <strong>the</strong> designing happening<br />

<strong>the</strong>re can be no meaningful<br />

observation.' (Bly<strong>the</strong>, 2010).<br />

Analysing and presenting data<br />

is followed by syn<strong>the</strong>sis and<br />

resolving into a course <strong>of</strong> action.<br />

And in fact, <strong>the</strong> overall challenge<br />

might not be to create ei<strong>the</strong>r<br />

visions or transitions through<br />

design methods, but to produce<br />

systems that make this approach<br />

possible and that can learn<br />

from failure.<br />

My approach to arriving at a design<br />

response for this project was <strong>the</strong>n<br />

to fold my insights into a proposal<br />

(Boyer et al, 2013:31). Still, <strong>the</strong><br />

outcome is not a preconceived<br />

solution, but an improvisation<br />

from which one might learn a<br />

course <strong>of</strong> action (Boyer et al, 2011).<br />

Prototyping in this sense assumes<br />

that 'what we make today does<br />

not have to be <strong>the</strong> limit <strong>of</strong> what<br />

we hope to accomplish tomorrow'<br />

(Boyer et al, 2013:18). And my design<br />

response should be read as an<br />

assertion that <strong>the</strong> idea <strong>of</strong> design can<br />

be extended to suggest that '<strong>the</strong><br />

making <strong>of</strong> things can also affect <strong>the</strong><br />

formation and function <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> more<br />

diffuse layers around it: <strong>the</strong> cultures,<br />

institutions, and systems that shape<br />

our world.' (Boyer et al, 2013:18)<br />

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20


and Methods<br />

22<br />

Methodology<br />

21


Methodology<br />

My approach to exploring healthcare<br />

as a system through <strong>the</strong> lens <strong>of</strong> living<br />

with CF consisted <strong>of</strong> a series <strong>of</strong> activities<br />

iterating between zooming in and out <strong>of</strong><br />

this network, its actors, and <strong>the</strong>ir relations.<br />

<strong>Through</strong>out, I mapped and documented<br />

<strong>the</strong> resulting findings and insights, and<br />

aimed to explore emerging trends and<br />

behaviours. The design outcome is a<br />

response to some <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> issues and<br />

directions this process revealed, but is<br />

also intended to ask fur<strong>the</strong>r questions<br />

and provoke reflection.<br />

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24


Methods<br />

25<br />

Visual Mapping<br />

First, I identified <strong>the</strong> main actors<br />

within CF care based on personal<br />

experience and knowledge, and<br />

started mapping <strong>the</strong>ir relationships<br />

and motivations. I checked this<br />

against information from <strong>the</strong> CF<br />

Trust and NHS, and added to<br />

it throughout <strong>the</strong> project. This<br />

approach is loosely based on<br />

actor network <strong>the</strong>ory as a research<br />

method (Latour, 2005). Taking<br />

people with CF as starting point,<br />

I explored and began to unravel<br />

some <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> network and relations<br />

that make up healthcare today.<br />

Expert Interviews<br />

Next, I spoke to as many actors<br />

within this system as possible,<br />

to explore diverse angles on<br />

healthcare. During <strong>the</strong>se interviews<br />

I tried to focus <strong>the</strong> conversation on<br />

<strong>the</strong> bigger picture, <strong>the</strong> future <strong>of</strong> this<br />

system, and where opportunities<br />

lie. However, this approach did<br />

not prove particularly successful,<br />

many people had simply never<br />

considered <strong>the</strong>se questions and<br />

even when leading with a proposal<br />

as I tried later (Boyer et al, 2013:30),<br />

<strong>the</strong>y found it difficult to give an<br />

opinion on <strong>the</strong> spot from what<br />

<strong>the</strong>y saw as <strong>the</strong>ir isolated position.<br />

Instead, I changed my approach<br />

and focused on <strong>the</strong>ir own work right<br />

now, and on testing and revising<br />

some <strong>of</strong> my assumptions about<br />

<strong>the</strong>ir perspective and contribution.<br />

Literature and<br />

Case Studies<br />

I was particularly interested in<br />

<strong>the</strong> social innovation this network<br />

has experienced alongside<br />

technological changes, e.g. in how<br />

knowledge is created, negotiated,<br />

and diffused between different<br />

actors. I agree with Boyer et al<br />

(2013:9) that new ideas 'may be<br />

conceived <strong>of</strong> in <strong>the</strong> abstract but<br />

ultimately must be built amidst<br />

and within <strong>the</strong> old'. Thus I aimed to<br />

develop a grounded understanding<br />

<strong>of</strong> where this system and its actors<br />

might be headed in <strong>the</strong> future, and<br />

looked at existing literature and<br />

case studies, after expert interviews<br />

could not really answer this. I looked<br />

at emerging behaviour and trends,<br />

but also at case studies where<br />

<strong>the</strong>se conversations had been<br />

driven forward more concretely,<br />

within and beyond healthcare,<br />

and where <strong>the</strong> traditional onedimensional<br />

view <strong>of</strong> how to address<br />

disability and chronic illness had<br />

been challenged.<br />

Ethnography<br />

<strong>Through</strong> ethnography, I aimed<br />

to explore how people with CF<br />

relate to this complex system <strong>of</strong><br />

healthcare and its future more<br />

specifically. In this sense ‘exploring’<br />

meant to observe, listen and<br />

experience a social setting and<br />

relations through participant<br />

observation which can provide ‘rich,<br />

rounded, local and specific’ data<br />

for analysing one particular case<br />

(Mason, 2002:89). It allowed me<br />

to look at a range <strong>of</strong> dimensions<br />

including <strong>the</strong> physical settings<br />

and non-human actors within<br />

this network (Mason, 2002:85;<br />

May, 2011:178). It also provided an<br />

opportunity to study interaction as<br />

it occurs in specific contexts ra<strong>the</strong>r<br />

than reported or constructed within<br />

retrospective accounts (Mason,<br />

2002:85).<br />

Digital<br />

Ethnography<br />

On <strong>the</strong> o<strong>the</strong>r hand, in all networks<br />

people are already 'busy<br />

interpreting and understanding<br />

<strong>the</strong>ir environments' (May, 2011:170),<br />

and to find out more about <strong>the</strong>ir<br />

perspective, I started exploring <strong>the</strong><br />

online world <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> CF community.<br />

Every week, I read one blog by<br />

someone with CF in detail. I also<br />

looked at <strong>the</strong> bloggers' Twitter and<br />

Facebook feeds, and paid close<br />

attention to reoccurring issues<br />

around life with CF. As CF patients<br />

cannot meet each o<strong>the</strong>r, this online<br />

space has thrived in recent years.<br />

It is a digital public space where I<br />

could observe as well as participate<br />

in how people construct <strong>the</strong>ir<br />

identity as someone with CF, how<br />

<strong>the</strong>y see and describe <strong>the</strong>mselves<br />

as an actor within <strong>the</strong> healthcare<br />

system, and how <strong>the</strong>se roles can<br />

be in conflict and characterised by<br />

control and resistance.<br />

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My Role<br />

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The resulting analysis is <strong>of</strong> course<br />

not a ‘full and neutral account <strong>of</strong><br />

a setting or set <strong>of</strong> interactions’<br />

but selectivity and perspective<br />

inadvertently play a role for <strong>the</strong>se<br />

findings (Mason, 2002:89). As<br />

my research is not and cannot<br />

be independent from my own<br />

biography, this project should be<br />

read with an awareness <strong>of</strong> my<br />

own context and connection to<br />

CF. Of course <strong>the</strong>re are tensions<br />

associated with this, and how I<br />

interpret findings is affected by my<br />

double roles as design researcher<br />

and person with CF. Everyone I<br />

spoke to during <strong>the</strong>se weeks was<br />

informed that I live with CF, and<br />

thus made <strong>the</strong>ir own conclusions<br />

on where I stand relating to <strong>the</strong><br />

healthcare system, which <strong>of</strong> course<br />

shaped our interactions. I have been<br />

both observer and participant for a<br />

long time when it comes to CF care,<br />

and even when I reflected on my<br />

interactions with healthcare more<br />

in-depth during <strong>the</strong>se 12 weeks<br />

specifically, clearly much <strong>of</strong> my<br />

more long-term experience has fed<br />

into this project. Being accustomed<br />

to CF and its care helped me<br />

gain deeper understanding as I<br />

could draw on this experience to<br />

comprehend actions in context<br />

(C<strong>of</strong>fey, 2002). My experience <strong>of</strong><br />

this setting is consequently itself<br />

a reconstruction and I cannot<br />

assume that it matches that <strong>of</strong> o<strong>the</strong>r<br />

actors. To avoid misrepresentation,<br />

I have however complemented<br />

ethnographic research with<br />

methods focusing more on <strong>the</strong><br />

experience <strong>of</strong> o<strong>the</strong>rs as described<br />

above (May, 2011:136). I am part <strong>of</strong><br />

<strong>the</strong> world I aim to understand and<br />

design for, but this is ‘not a matter<br />

<strong>of</strong> methodological commitment, it is<br />

an existential fact’ as <strong>the</strong> presence<br />

<strong>of</strong> a researcher will always affect<br />

<strong>the</strong> research (Hammersley and<br />

Atkinson, 1995:15). Already being<br />

part <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> scene and accepted<br />

to some degree could in fact be<br />

argued to keep this effect at a<br />

minimum and had o<strong>the</strong>r advantages<br />

as it was easier to get access to and<br />

build rapport to certain participants.<br />

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Ethics<br />

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My own connection with CF also<br />

helped me when approaching<br />

sensitive topics and conducting<br />

research ethically. I know <strong>the</strong><br />

risks <strong>of</strong> cross-infection and only<br />

engaged o<strong>the</strong>rs with CF online<br />

ra<strong>the</strong>r than in person, I knew it was<br />

important to be flexible with time<br />

and research methods as people<br />

might be experiencing ill health,<br />

and I had an idea <strong>of</strong> what not to ask,<br />

where to stop, and when to take<br />

breaks. I am also aware <strong>of</strong> some<br />

<strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> complexities around ways<br />

<strong>of</strong> portraying people with CF, thus<br />

ethical considerations have not only<br />

been built into my research process<br />

but also into delivering its results.<br />

This helped not only to protect<br />

participants, but also myself.<br />

I felt it was important to only contact<br />

people with CF who are very public<br />

about this online, who act as patient<br />

advocates, and activists. I engaged<br />

<strong>the</strong>m because <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong>ir connection<br />

to CF ra<strong>the</strong>r than as 'patients' within<br />

<strong>the</strong> NHS. This helped to avoid some<br />

<strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> problems related to revealing<br />

identities and attitudes, and using<br />

private information or patient data,<br />

but it also enabled this project to<br />

explore a much deeper and wider<br />

picture <strong>of</strong> health and illness.<br />

Wherever possible, I asked<br />

participants about any o<strong>the</strong>r<br />

concerns <strong>the</strong>y might have<br />

regarding ethics and privacy, and<br />

informed <strong>the</strong>m that <strong>the</strong>y can stop<br />

<strong>the</strong> conversation at any point, not<br />

answer questions, and change<br />

<strong>the</strong>ir mind later about how our<br />

conversation will be used. I also<br />

aimed for transparency by keeping<br />

people updated and asking for<br />

consent to how <strong>the</strong>ir stories are<br />

used with progress and outcomes<br />

before publishing this book. This<br />

was also important to some <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

experts who work at different and<br />

potentially opposing ends <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

healthcare system.<br />

Still, informed consent is not a<br />

straight forward issue when it<br />

comes to digital ethnography.<br />

Websites, blogs, and forums<br />

can be considered public digital<br />

spaces, and being seen and heard<br />

as someone with CF is part <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

agenda <strong>of</strong> many activist patients,<br />

and <strong>the</strong>y implicitly encourage<br />

to share <strong>the</strong>ir stories. Yet explicit<br />

consent from every single person<br />

involved was <strong>of</strong>ten not possible and<br />

data from digital ethnography has<br />

<strong>the</strong>refore been anonymised within<br />

this book.<br />

In my experience, it can be<br />

empowering to be asked about<br />

living with CF, to reflect on this<br />

experience, and to imagine<br />

preferable futures. <strong>Through</strong>out this<br />

project, I tried to give opportunities<br />

to do so as a way <strong>of</strong> giving back to<br />

<strong>the</strong> CF community and participants.<br />

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PART 2<br />

A Journey <strong>Through</strong> <strong>Healthcare</strong><br />

Here I illustrate my journey through<br />

<strong>the</strong> world <strong>of</strong> cystic fibrosis and<br />

healthcare, I talk about <strong>the</strong> context,<br />

findings and insights <strong>of</strong> this project,<br />

and describe how I got from issue to<br />

opportunity and design response.<br />

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<strong>Cystic</strong> <strong>Fibrosis</strong><br />

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What causes CF<br />

The abnormal gene causes <strong>the</strong> protein controlling <strong>the</strong> movement <strong>of</strong> salt<br />

and water to not work properly. It retains salt, which leads to thick and sticky<br />

mucus plugs throughout <strong>the</strong> body.<br />

FATHER<br />

One copy <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

faulty CFTR gene<br />

MOTHER<br />

One copy <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

faulty CFTR gene<br />

CF is an inherited disease<br />

and more than 2.5 million<br />

people in <strong>the</strong> UK carry <strong>the</strong><br />

faulty gene, around one<br />

in 25 <strong>of</strong> us – most without<br />

knowing. Each week five<br />

babies are born with cystic<br />

fibrosis, and <strong>the</strong>re are<br />

around 10,500 people living<br />

with CF in <strong>the</strong> UK.<br />

airway wall<br />

Normal airway<br />

thin layer <strong>of</strong> mucus<br />

Airway with cystic fibrosis<br />

thick layer <strong>of</strong> mucus<br />

CF carrier<br />

CF carrier<br />

CHILD<br />

CHILD<br />

CHILD<br />

CHILD<br />

outside cell<br />

mucus<br />

inside cell<br />

Two copies <strong>of</strong><br />

normal CFTR gene<br />

One copy <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

faulty CFTR gene<br />

One copy <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

faulty CFTR gene<br />

Two copies <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

faulty CFTR gene<br />

chloride ions<br />

Does not have CF<br />

CF carrier<br />

CF carrier<br />

Has CF<br />

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(All medical information, statistics, and medical diagrams about cystic fibrosis and its biology have come from <strong>the</strong> UK CF Trust<br />

website and publications available at http://www.cysticfibrosis.org.uk)<br />

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Symptoms<br />

This thick mucus plugs up <strong>the</strong><br />

lung, pancreas, and sinus. It causes<br />

malnutrition, frequent pneumonias<br />

and inflammation in <strong>the</strong> lung, liver<br />

disease, diabetes, and low bone<br />

density. Eventually CF leads to<br />

respiratory failure and death as <strong>the</strong><br />

airways collapse or <strong>the</strong> damaged<br />

and inflamed lungs become overly<br />

stretched. At <strong>the</strong> moment, CF is<br />

treatable but not curable. Around<br />

half <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> CF population in <strong>the</strong><br />

UK will live past 41, and this is a<br />

huge improvement from a median<br />

survival age <strong>of</strong> around 20 years as<br />

recently as <strong>the</strong> 1980s. Still, every<br />

week two people in <strong>the</strong> UK die <strong>of</strong><br />

CF, and half those are aged 28<br />

or younger.<br />

Lungs<br />

Frequent productive coughing,<br />

shortness <strong>of</strong> breath, infections,<br />

inflammation, bouts <strong>of</strong> bronchitis<br />

and pneumonia<br />

Pancreas<br />

Inability to digest food and<br />

malabsorption <strong>of</strong> nutrients and<br />

vitamins, diabetes, ongoing<br />

diarrhea and stomach pain,<br />

dehydration and malnutrition<br />

despite huge appetite<br />

Skin<br />

Abnormally salty sweat and salty<br />

tears, finger clubbing<br />

Sinuses<br />

Chronic infection and<br />

pain, nasal polyps,<br />

equilibrium problems<br />

Intestines<br />

Blockage and constipation<br />

Bones<br />

Low bone density,<br />

osteoporosis, arthritis<br />

Liver<br />

Liver damage<br />

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What this means<br />

What this means for most people<br />

with CF is coughing almost<br />

constantly, bringing up sticky and<br />

at times bloody mucus, being<br />

exhausted quickly, being in pain,<br />

having frequent infections and<br />

pneumonia, and dealing with<br />

indigestion. Many people with CF<br />

describe how <strong>the</strong>y feel as ‘drowning<br />

from <strong>the</strong> inside.’ It also means<br />

worrying about declining health,<br />

<strong>the</strong> future or an early death, and<br />

managing o<strong>the</strong>r people’s worries<br />

and fears.<br />

It means taking over 30 pills, doing<br />

several hours <strong>of</strong> boring and painful<br />

physio<strong>the</strong>rapy, doing regular<br />

exercise, maintaining a high fat<br />

diet, and fitting in life in between<br />

- every day. Some days, it means<br />

lengthy hospital check ups, long<br />

hospital stays, pharmacy visits,<br />

frustrating test results, esxplaining<br />

your condition to o<strong>the</strong>rs who<br />

might dismiss it, conflicts and<br />

misunderstandings with doctors,<br />

missing school or work days, tube<br />

feeding, IV drips, oxygen machines,<br />

pain and exhaustion, various side<br />

effects, forgotten treatments and<br />

feelings <strong>of</strong> guilt.<br />

Nei<strong>the</strong>r <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong>se is an exhaustive list<br />

<strong>of</strong> complications. And both leave<br />

out <strong>the</strong> good parts <strong>of</strong> life with CF.<br />

For example <strong>the</strong> excitement <strong>of</strong> your<br />

best friends kidnapping you and<br />

your oxygen machine from hospital<br />

to go to <strong>the</strong> cinema. Or feeling<br />

strong and free like a superhero<br />

walking by <strong>the</strong> sea where <strong>the</strong> salty<br />

air makes breathing easy. Or <strong>the</strong><br />

sweetness <strong>of</strong> your first kiss after a<br />

period <strong>of</strong> not being able to kiss for<br />

lack <strong>of</strong> breath.<br />

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Treatment<br />

Treatment <strong>of</strong> CF consists mainly<br />

<strong>of</strong> methods to remove and thin<br />

mucus and medications to treat<br />

digestive problems<br />

and infections.<br />

Recently, a new type <strong>of</strong><br />

treatment has given people with<br />

CF hope. The precision medicine<br />

Orkambi for <strong>the</strong> first time tackles<br />

<strong>the</strong> underlying cause <strong>of</strong> cystic<br />

fibrosis - <strong>the</strong> genetic defect -<br />

ra<strong>the</strong>r than just its symptoms.<br />

However, it is very expensive,<br />

and its long-term value and<br />

impact are still unsure. So far <strong>the</strong><br />

NHS has rejected to take on <strong>the</strong><br />

costs <strong>of</strong> Orkambi.<br />

Physio<strong>the</strong>rapy<br />

breathing exercises to<br />

cough up mucus<br />

PEP and Flutter<br />

breathing through<br />

<strong>the</strong>m creates pressure<br />

and vibrations in lungs<br />

to loosen mucus<br />

Vitamin and Nutrition<br />

Supplements<br />

The Vest<br />

vibrates to<br />

loosen mucus<br />

Lung Transplant<br />

when o<strong>the</strong>rwise<br />

reaching end <strong>of</strong> life<br />

Nebulisers<br />

inhaling medication<br />

that helps break up<br />

mucus or fight bacteria<br />

Antibiotics and Steroids<br />

oral or IV, to fight<br />

bacterial infections<br />

and inflammation<br />

High Fat Diet<br />

to maintain weight<br />

Tube Feeding<br />

when absorbing too<br />

few nutrients from food<br />

Long-term<br />

Oxygen Therapy<br />

when blood oxygen<br />

levels dangerously low<br />

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<strong>Healthcare</strong><br />

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feel better,<br />

find a cure,<br />

live well<br />

The <strong>Healthcare</strong> System<br />

ambiguous<br />

position and<br />

interest, many<br />

stakeholders<br />

speak out<br />

PATIENTS<br />

PATIENT<br />

ORGANISATIONS<br />

collaborate<br />

collaborate<br />

PHARMA<br />

INDUSTRY<br />

sell products,<br />

make pr<strong>of</strong>it<br />

treats<br />

exchange data<br />

appeals to<br />

sells drugs to<br />

approves drugs<br />

treat, heal,<br />

prolong life<br />

NHS<br />

funds<br />

GOVERNMENT<br />

lower cost and<br />

increase efficiency<br />

<strong>of</strong> healthcare<br />

NICE - National Institute<br />

for Health and Care Excellence<br />

achieve value for money,<br />

guarantee safety, make<br />

ethically and financially<br />

viable decisions<br />

mindsets<br />

expectations<br />

data<br />

knowledge<br />

ownership<br />

ethical value<br />

monetary value<br />

WIDELY VARYING<br />

DEFINITIONS OF SUCCESS<br />

Delivering <strong>the</strong>se treatments<br />

and looking after people with<br />

CF is a complex task. Recent<br />

developments have meant much<br />

better quality and length <strong>of</strong> life<br />

for people with CF, yet <strong>the</strong>re are<br />

still many challenges. Today’s<br />

CF care is <strong>the</strong> product <strong>of</strong> a wide<br />

range <strong>of</strong> technologies, decades <strong>of</strong><br />

accumulated medical and clinical<br />

breakthroughs, pharmaceutical<br />

research, and political innovations<br />

required to set up and run public<br />

healthcare. This map looks at <strong>the</strong><br />

relationships between some <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

actors involved in delivering care<br />

and shows how value, attitudes,<br />

and knowledge moves around<br />

this network.<br />

Of course healthcare is more<br />

complex than this diagram<br />

can demonstrate. Yet, even<br />

when beginning to map <strong>the</strong>se<br />

connections from my research,<br />

it quickly emerges that its actors<br />

have very different motivations<br />

and definitions <strong>of</strong> success and<br />

value - sometimes complementary,<br />

sometimes clashing. Moreover,<br />

<strong>the</strong>re are power imbalances, and<br />

<strong>of</strong>ten <strong>the</strong> bigger picture at system<br />

level does not figure into everyday<br />

work carried out in isolation. This<br />

means that change and innovation<br />

within this network can be<br />

expensive and slow, and only<br />

reflect a few particular interests.<br />

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Expert Interviews<br />

To get a closer view <strong>of</strong> this system and explore different angles<br />

and viewpoints in more detail, I interviewed a range <strong>of</strong> people<br />

involved in diverse parts <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> healthcare network.<br />

As already shown in <strong>the</strong> system map above, <strong>the</strong>y paint a picture<br />

<strong>of</strong> a complex system with many diverse actors, each with<br />

different interests, knowledge, and definitions <strong>of</strong> values - who<br />

sometimes clash, sometimes complement each o<strong>the</strong>r, or act<br />

insularly. They also talked about ways in which <strong>the</strong>ir own work<br />

has been changing and where future opportunities might lie.<br />

Much <strong>of</strong> it seems to happen outside <strong>the</strong> public health realm,<br />

and in isolation ra<strong>the</strong>r than being a coherent effort at moving<br />

things forward.<br />

Case Studies<br />

To find out about emerging trends I also looked at case studies<br />

within and beyond healthcare, where <strong>the</strong> traditional onedimensional<br />

view <strong>of</strong> how to address disability and chronic illness<br />

have been challenged. They complicate <strong>the</strong>se questions, break<br />

down <strong>the</strong> patient / expert dichotomy, open up possibilites, and<br />

allow hackability.<br />

(for more detailed interview and case study summaries see appendix p. 18 - 27)<br />

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Emerging<br />

Trends in<br />

Healtcare<br />

To shed more light on where things<br />

are headed, I complemented this<br />

with fur<strong>the</strong>r secondary research on<br />

what is happening at <strong>the</strong> cutting<br />

edge <strong>of</strong> healthcare and what <strong>the</strong><br />

future might look like in this space.<br />

This is a summary <strong>of</strong> interrelated<br />

emerging trends within and<br />

beyond healthcare.<br />

(This is based on readings listed<br />

in ‘<strong>Cystic</strong> <strong>Fibrosis</strong> and <strong>Healthcare</strong>’,<br />

appendix p. 9 and analysing case<br />

studies described in more detail in<br />

appendix p. 22)<br />

Precision Medicine<br />

Medical knowledge is based on<br />

<strong>the</strong> average response to particular<br />

treatments. Today <strong>the</strong>re are more<br />

and more programmes collecting and<br />

interpreting genomic data that can<br />

explain <strong>the</strong>se differences, predict<br />

patient's responses to treatment,<br />

and help to develop precise and<br />

personalised medicine. These tests<br />

are becoming cheaper, quicker, and<br />

more portable too.<br />

Portable Digital Health<br />

New digital technologies allow<br />

people to track and analyse <strong>the</strong>ir<br />

own everyday health data through<br />

wearables and smartphone apps. This<br />

and o<strong>the</strong>r health knowledge can be<br />

shared with o<strong>the</strong>rs, or used to make<br />

lifestyle changes.<br />

Digital Public Spaces<br />

Patients demand transparency<br />

regarding <strong>the</strong>ir health records, and turn<br />

to <strong>the</strong> internet for advice and support<br />

from peers. Patient organisations act<br />

as spaces <strong>of</strong> innovation and move from<br />

passive provider <strong>of</strong> data or fundraiser to<br />

being actively engaged in <strong>the</strong> process <strong>of</strong><br />

producing and circulating knowledge.<br />

Online crowdfunding is used to finance<br />

clinical trials for rare diseases, and we<br />

have seen <strong>the</strong> gamification <strong>of</strong> treatments<br />

and healthy choices through apps.<br />

More Than Medicine<br />

The importance <strong>of</strong> healthy lifestyles has<br />

been recognised within and without<br />

<strong>the</strong> medical pr<strong>of</strong>ession. Giving people<br />

<strong>the</strong> skills, knowledge, and confidence<br />

to improve <strong>the</strong>ir health and well-being,<br />

and emotional and practical support<br />

to live well with long-term conditions<br />

has become more important. There is a<br />

reorientation from clinical pr<strong>of</strong>essionals<br />

as expert instructors to partners<br />

and collaborators.<br />

To summarise, digital technology<br />

is becoming increasingly important,<br />

and this goes hand in hand with<br />

social innovation and new attitudes,<br />

needs, and behaviours. Financial<br />

aspect however, are also more<br />

and more important, and much <strong>of</strong><br />

this is happening outside <strong>of</strong> public<br />

healthcare, in a more private and<br />

commercial setting.<br />

Many questions remain<br />

unanswered, especially in <strong>the</strong><br />

area <strong>of</strong> consent, privacy, and<br />

sharing data. As well as around<br />

<strong>the</strong> ethics <strong>of</strong> funding new and<br />

innovative research, drugs, and<br />

treatments within a system that<br />

includes both public health<br />

and a capitalist market. It is also<br />

worth taking a critical view on<br />

<strong>the</strong> usefulness <strong>of</strong> more and more<br />

data ga<strong>the</strong>ring, and whe<strong>the</strong>r we<br />

really are producing new kinds <strong>of</strong><br />

knowledge and using it differently<br />

from before. The role <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

patient in all <strong>of</strong> this is becoming<br />

increasingly blurred and<br />

contested from all sides <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

healthcare system, including<br />

patients <strong>the</strong>mselves.<br />

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People<br />

with CF<br />

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Working at<br />

<strong>the</strong> Extremes<br />

The aim <strong>of</strong> this project is to explore some<br />

<strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong>se questions relating to <strong>the</strong> future <strong>of</strong><br />

healthcare through <strong>the</strong> lens <strong>of</strong> living with<br />

CF. The complex and life-long treatment<br />

regime, frequent hospital stays, personal<br />

involvement in large parts <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong>ir own<br />

care, and new possibilities for precision<br />

medicine make people with CF extreme<br />

users <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> healthcare system. Thus CF<br />

is an interesting case to highlight key<br />

dimensions and to provide deep insights<br />

(Boyer et al, 2013: 53).<br />

People<br />

with<br />

CF...<br />

...are usually very involved and<br />

proactive in <strong>the</strong>ir own daily<br />

care<br />

...blur and challenge onedimensional<br />

views <strong>of</strong> health<br />

and illness<br />

...are usually also involved in<br />

creating knowledge used to<br />

treat CF<br />

... work with multidisciplinary<br />

medical teams to<br />

manage symptoms<br />

...cannot meet each o<strong>the</strong>r<br />

in person due to risk <strong>of</strong><br />

cross-infection<br />

...rely on <strong>the</strong> internet for<br />

contact with peers, and <strong>the</strong>re<br />

is a lively community <strong>of</strong><br />

people with CF supporting<br />

each o<strong>the</strong>r and advocating<br />

<strong>the</strong>ir position<br />

...are at <strong>the</strong> cutting<br />

edge <strong>of</strong> research with<br />

new treatments being<br />

developed and tested, as<br />

new technologies such<br />

as gene editing are<br />

becoming available<br />

...are at <strong>the</strong> cutting edge<br />

<strong>of</strong> debates and campaigns<br />

around funding innovative<br />

drugs with NICE rejecting<br />

to fund <strong>the</strong> life-changing<br />

but extremely expensive<br />

treatment Orkambi<br />

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expertise<br />

FEELINGS<br />

KNOWLEDGE<br />

IDEAS<br />

TOOLS<br />

despair<br />

resilience<br />

smart phone<br />

health<br />

motivation fear apps<br />

trust<br />

frustration hope<br />

success<br />

experiment<br />

illness<br />

confusion<br />

disability<br />

doubt<br />

health<br />

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research<br />

information<br />

experience<br />

data<br />

advice<br />

hacks<br />

internet<br />

treatments<br />

online forums<br />

energy<br />

support<br />

time<br />

lifestyle<br />

exercise<br />

diet<br />

a life<br />

worth<br />

living<br />

money<br />

treatment<br />

routines<br />

pharmacy<br />

NHS<br />

HABITS<br />

RESOURCES<br />

ORGANISATIONS<br />

NICE<br />

(drug approval)<br />

pharma industry<br />

CF Trust<br />

clinic<br />

team<br />

employers<br />

o<strong>the</strong>rs<br />

with CF<br />

workplace<br />

travel<br />

PEOPLE<br />

partners<br />

family<br />

friends<br />

home<br />

PLACES<br />

school /<br />

university<br />

hospital<br />

Landscape<br />

Looking at this system from <strong>the</strong><br />

perspective <strong>of</strong> someone with CF as<br />

extreme user, reveals a much larger<br />

view <strong>of</strong> what health and illness means.<br />

It quickly develops into a map <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

wider landscape someone with CF is<br />

surrounded by and helps to understand<br />

deeper impacts. This shows that looking<br />

at health and care on a macro level and in<br />

a social context can reveal more insights<br />

than considering it micro and individual.<br />

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Appointment Journey<br />

When looking at<br />

<strong>the</strong> o<strong>the</strong>r extreme<br />

and zooming in, it<br />

becomes clear that<br />

<strong>the</strong>re are moments<br />

<strong>of</strong> intensity within<br />

this landscape - for<br />

example a hospital<br />

check-up. And yet<br />

<strong>the</strong>y leave little<br />

space and time to<br />

make sense <strong>of</strong> and<br />

discuss <strong>the</strong> bigger<br />

picture. What do<br />

<strong>the</strong>se test results<br />

mean for my job,<br />

my family, my life<br />

from now on? Do<br />

I need to put more<br />

work into getting<br />

better or arrange<br />

myself with <strong>the</strong> new<br />

situation? What if I<br />

feel different from<br />

what <strong>the</strong> tests<br />

suggest? When<br />

will I die?<br />

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taking<br />

time <strong>of</strong>f<br />

preparing<br />

journey<br />

to hospital<br />

speaking to employer<br />

arranging a day <strong>of</strong>f<br />

thinking about questions<br />

preparing notes<br />

worrying about<br />

upcoming test results<br />

waiting<br />

room<br />

remembering results<br />

and comparing to last time<br />

thinking about<br />

missed treatments<br />

called in<br />

by nurse<br />

assigned<br />

room<br />

see nutritionist<br />

different<br />

psychologist<br />

specialists<br />

tests<br />

repeating your<br />

story to everyone<br />

trying to sound optimistic<br />

wait<br />

told to<br />

work harder<br />

pharmacist<br />

physio<strong>the</strong>rapist<br />

feeling blamed<br />

googling<br />

new diagnoses<br />

in real time<br />

live feed to mum<br />

and best friend<br />

most important<br />

person and least time<br />

peaking at<br />

your medical files<br />

see doctor<br />

talking while<br />

giving blood<br />

more<br />

tests<br />

decisions<br />

decisions about<br />

fur<strong>the</strong>r treatment<br />

trying to understand<br />

<strong>the</strong> bigger picture<br />

resolutions<br />

and promises<br />

journey<br />

home<br />

tired and hungry<br />

leaving<br />

hospital<br />

wondering what it all means<br />

for life in <strong>the</strong> next weeks / years<br />

looking for<br />

opinions online<br />

back<br />

home<br />

incorporating changing<br />

treatments into daily routine<br />

experimenting<br />

with different<br />

treatments<br />

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A total <strong>of</strong> 85 people<br />

completed <strong>the</strong><br />

questionnaire. There were<br />

more females among <strong>the</strong><br />

respondents than males<br />

(61.2% versus 38.8%).<br />

Respondents ranged in<br />

age from 16 to 65 and <strong>the</strong><br />

median age was 30. The<br />

majority <strong>of</strong> respondents<br />

(73%) were aged 20-40.<br />

71% <strong>of</strong> individuals had<br />

sought information on <strong>the</strong>ir<br />

life expectancy from sources<br />

o<strong>the</strong>r than <strong>the</strong>ir doctor/CF<br />

care team. Over 25% <strong>of</strong><br />

respondents had sought<br />

information on <strong>the</strong>ir life<br />

expectancy from each <strong>of</strong><br />

<strong>the</strong> following sources:<br />

“Reports from <strong>the</strong> <strong>Cystic</strong><br />

<strong>Fibrosis</strong> Trust/<strong>the</strong> <strong>Cystic</strong><br />

<strong>Fibrosis</strong> Trust website” (41%),<br />

“Research literature” (39%),<br />

“Patient websites/forums”<br />

(29%), “O<strong>the</strong>r internet<br />

sites” (26%).<br />

25% <strong>of</strong> individuals said that <strong>the</strong>ir<br />

doctor/CF care team had provided<br />

<strong>the</strong>m with information on <strong>the</strong>ir life<br />

expectancy as part <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong>ir routine<br />

care, while 66% had not been<br />

provided with such information and<br />

9% were not sure.<br />

27% <strong>of</strong> individuals had actively<br />

sought information on life<br />

expectancy from <strong>the</strong>ir doctor/CF<br />

care team and 74% <strong>of</strong> those had<br />

actually received some information.<br />

73% <strong>of</strong> respondents reported that<br />

<strong>the</strong>y would like to receive more<br />

personalised information about<br />

<strong>the</strong>ir life expectancy. Of <strong>the</strong>se, 40%<br />

would prefer to receive this<br />

information only from <strong>the</strong>ir<br />

doctor/CF care team, 32% would<br />

prefer to receive it only by<br />

<strong>the</strong>mselves, for example via an<br />

online tool, and 27.4% would like to<br />

receive such information<br />

both/ei<strong>the</strong>r from <strong>the</strong>ir doctor and<br />

by <strong>the</strong>mselves.<br />

Life Expectancy Survey<br />

In fact, many people with CF<br />

would like to know more about<br />

<strong>the</strong>ir life expectancy. To illustrate<br />

this, Dr Ruth Keogh, Associate<br />

Pr<strong>of</strong>essor at <strong>the</strong> London School<br />

<strong>of</strong> Hygiene and Tropical Medicine,<br />

has kindly allowed me to include<br />

a preview selection <strong>of</strong> her results<br />

from a survey to understand what<br />

people with CF would like to learn<br />

about <strong>the</strong>ir life expectancy and<br />

o<strong>the</strong>r outcomes.<br />

Knowing about life expectancy<br />

can be a useful resource in <strong>the</strong><br />

pursuit <strong>of</strong> a life well lived, and<br />

<strong>the</strong>re are more and more options<br />

to arrive at reliable estimates. Yet<br />

<strong>the</strong>se more human questions<br />

<strong>of</strong>ten remain difficult to discuss<br />

with doctors and within <strong>the</strong><br />

healthcare system with its focus<br />

on diagnosis and treatment.<br />

(for more information see appendix p. 28 or http://blogs.lshtm.ac.uk/ruthkeogh/<br />

cf-online-questionnaire/ for details <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> questions and upcoming results)<br />

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Living With CF<br />

birth<br />

hospital stays<br />

and regular<br />

checkups<br />

early years<br />

early health problems<br />

and diagnosis<br />

everyday treatments:<br />

pills, nebulisers, exercise,<br />

physio<strong>the</strong>rapy, diet...<br />

rebellion<br />

non-adherence<br />

puberty<br />

first partner<br />

taking over care<br />

from parents<br />

education and<br />

career choices<br />

delayed puberty,<br />

scars and skinniness,<br />

telling your partner or friends about CF,<br />

more awareness <strong>of</strong> shortened<br />

lifespan and implications<br />

20th birthday<br />

moving out?<br />

having<br />

children?<br />

challenging what is possible for someone with CF,<br />

wondering what is possible for someone with CF<br />

getting<br />

married?<br />

oxygen <strong>the</strong>rapy?<br />

lung transplant? new treatments?<br />

end <strong>of</strong> life?<br />

Life<br />

Journey<br />

It is however <strong>the</strong>se questions that<br />

matter when it comes to managing<br />

a whole life with CF as this example<br />

<strong>of</strong> a life journey illustrates. Ill health,<br />

early death, extensive treatment<br />

regimes, and frequent hospital<br />

stays quickly become part <strong>of</strong> all<br />

important decisions. With time, life<br />

turns into an ever bigger question<br />

mark, and into a negotiation with<br />

your body and <strong>the</strong> institutions<br />

looking after it. It might be difficult<br />

to discuss this with anyone without<br />

breaking taboos, or causing fear<br />

and worry to loved ones. Making<br />

decisions and thinking about <strong>the</strong><br />

future can thus be characterised by<br />

loneliness and uncertainty. And yet,<br />

<strong>the</strong>re is plenty <strong>of</strong> creativity, courage,<br />

resilience, and resourcefulness to<br />

be encountered in lives with CF.<br />

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The CF<br />

community<br />

online<br />

People with CF increasingly connect<br />

to each o<strong>the</strong>r and <strong>the</strong> ‘CF community’<br />

has changed and developed<br />

considerably over <strong>the</strong> last years.<br />

Increasing life expectancy, and <strong>the</strong><br />

advent <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> internet and social<br />

media - where people can connect<br />

without meeting physically and risk<br />

cross-infection - have created new<br />

options for peer support within an<br />

adult patient community. Digital<br />

ethnography can reveal glimpses<br />

<strong>of</strong> this online world, and this is an<br />

impression <strong>of</strong> how people make<br />

sense <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong>ir lives with CF in <strong>the</strong><br />

digital public space.<br />

This online space is mobilising<br />

an adult patient community who<br />

increasingly use <strong>the</strong>ir experience<br />

and clinical knowledge to make<br />

<strong>the</strong>mselves part <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> networks<br />

<strong>of</strong> experts dealing with CF. Patient<br />

organisations like <strong>the</strong> CF Trust<br />

increasingly move from fundraiser<br />

and passive provider <strong>of</strong> data to<br />

becoming engaged in <strong>the</strong> process<br />

<strong>of</strong> producing and circulating<br />

knowledge that is critical to<br />

people with CF.<br />

These developments are not<br />

without conflict, resistance, and<br />

limitations, but overall patient<br />

organisations <strong>of</strong>ten innovate<br />

<strong>the</strong> relations between citizens<br />

and research, public health, and<br />

industry. They work within <strong>the</strong>se<br />

systems to imagine new appraisals<br />

<strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong>ir causes and conditions<br />

and this constitutes a new form <strong>of</strong><br />

citizenship based on <strong>the</strong> collective<br />

production <strong>of</strong> knowledge.<br />

(For examples, quotes, and summaries from exploring <strong>the</strong> digital spaces around CF<br />

see appendix p. 34)<br />

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Close-Up<br />

To explore in more detail how digital and non-digital<br />

interactions between people with CF might look<br />

like today, and what difference <strong>the</strong>y make within a<br />

life journey, I interviewed Oli Rayner who lives with<br />

CF. This is <strong>of</strong> course only one case, but it provides a<br />

close-up view <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> issues mentioned above.<br />

It shows that being in touch with o<strong>the</strong>rs with CF is a<br />

complex issue and has both upsides and downsides.<br />

It can be extremely upsetting, especially when it<br />

has been mediated through media with its own<br />

interests in portraying people a certain way. Recent<br />

developments have meant a more inspiring, positive<br />

impact is possible with longer and fuller lives, more<br />

direct connections, and continuously changing<br />

possibilities. Still <strong>the</strong> balancing act <strong>of</strong> living with<br />

CF but not letting it take over life completely, also<br />

applies to connecting to o<strong>the</strong>rs with CF.<br />

(for full transcript see appendix p. 30)<br />

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Design Response<br />

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What if...?<br />

What if connections<br />

between people<br />

with CF became an<br />

important resource<br />

for understanding,<br />

inspiration, and<br />

support? And help<br />

people with CF<br />

to help o<strong>the</strong>rs, to<br />

make a valuable<br />

contribution to<br />

someone else's<br />

life, and to leave<br />

a legacy.<br />

What if<br />

spontaneous<br />

and one-<strong>of</strong>f<br />

connections could<br />

complement<br />

personal<br />

relationships so<br />

that editing and<br />

sugar-coating how<br />

you feel to not<br />

upset loved ones<br />

does not become<br />

overbearing?<br />

Collecting more<br />

health data can be<br />

useful. But how<br />

might this data<br />

be used to create<br />

knowledge, or even<br />

meaning? What if<br />

it could help us to<br />

live adventurously<br />

and remarkably?<br />

What if it could<br />

help us accept<br />

uncertainty, but<br />

encourage us to<br />

make decisions<br />

reflecting hope<br />

not fear?<br />

Medical and<br />

pharmaceutical<br />

improvements<br />

are essential to<br />

CF care, but <strong>the</strong>re<br />

are a number <strong>of</strong><br />

questions <strong>the</strong>y<br />

cannot answer. How<br />

might we instead<br />

acknowledge,<br />

encourage, and<br />

make use <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

resourcefulness,<br />

resilience, courage,<br />

and creativity<br />

people with CF live<br />

<strong>the</strong>ir lives with?<br />

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A Possible<br />

Response<br />

COMPASS<br />

A WAYFINDING APP<br />

Compass - An app for wayfinding.<br />

This app will let people with CF get<br />

in touch with o<strong>the</strong>rs who live with<br />

similar health challenges. A phone<br />

call provides a direct, personal, but<br />

non-committal way <strong>of</strong> contact.<br />

It also lets people explore logs <strong>of</strong><br />

o<strong>the</strong>r people’s journeys with CF and<br />

beyond. And reflect on and log <strong>the</strong>ir<br />

own journey.<br />

Compass bridges <strong>the</strong> gap between<br />

medical and measurable data,<br />

patient activism, and research -<br />

and <strong>the</strong> more human layer <strong>of</strong><br />

well-being, sensemaking and<br />

wayfinding through storytelling<br />

and personal contact.<br />

1<br />

2<br />

3<br />

4<br />

Share (some <strong>of</strong>) your<br />

data with Compass,<br />

You can also add<br />

a question.<br />

Based on this, Compass<br />

will point you to o<strong>the</strong>rs<br />

who had or are having<br />

a similar experience,<br />

challenge, or question,<br />

or live <strong>the</strong>ir lives in a<br />

body similar to yours.<br />

It will <strong>of</strong>fer you <strong>the</strong><br />

possibility to start a<br />

phone call with this<br />

person. It is spontaneous<br />

and what you make <strong>of</strong> it,<br />

no strings attached.<br />

5<br />

6<br />

You can also view a<br />

mapped trajectory<br />

<strong>of</strong> this person's life,<br />

a brief log <strong>of</strong> events,<br />

experiences, ideas.<br />

If you would like to, you<br />

can register your phone<br />

number with Compass<br />

to also be available for<br />

calls. To share (some <strong>of</strong>)<br />

your health data. And to<br />

log your own journey.<br />

1<br />

2<br />

4<br />

5<br />

6<br />

3<br />

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COMPASS<br />

A WAYFINDING APP<br />

COMPASS<br />

A WAY FINDING APP<br />

ASK A QUESTION<br />

OR TYPE AN ISSUE<br />

CONNECT OR<br />

I want to become a mo<strong>the</strong>r<br />

ADD HEALTH DATA<br />

CALLING<br />

ELENA<br />

THIS IS<br />

SOMEONE<br />

SIMILAR<br />

Genetic Pr<strong>of</strong>ile<br />

Lung Function<br />

Call<br />

View Trajectory<br />

COMPASS<br />

EXPLORE<br />

Weight<br />

Mood<br />

HANG UP<br />

Add or<br />

connect<br />

health data<br />

Ask a<br />

question<br />

Find<br />

someone<br />

similar<br />

View and<br />

add to<br />

your log<br />

Register as<br />

taking calls<br />

COMPASS<br />

Connect<br />

to FitBit<br />

Connect to<br />

CF Trust Registry<br />

COMPASS<br />

COMPASS<br />

COMPASS<br />

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gave<br />

birth<br />

EXPLORE<br />

TRAJECTORY<br />

very<br />

tired<br />

HELENA’S JOURNEY<br />

FEV1<br />

up!<br />

trans<br />

plant<br />

hope<br />

LOG YOUR<br />

OWN JOURNEY<br />

YOUR JOURNEY<br />

add add add<br />

REGISTER TO<br />

RECEIVE CALLS<br />

Ute<br />

CONFIRM<br />

What data should be<br />

revealed to whom?<br />

What does / did it mean<br />

for daily life, and for<br />

<strong>the</strong> bigger questions?<br />

What is a life well<br />

lived? What is possible?<br />

What is important?<br />

More<br />

Questions<br />

Compass does not intend to<br />

provide answers, but show possible<br />

trajectories, challenge what might<br />

be seen as inevitable or impossible,<br />

and open up discussions.<br />

This applies to living with CF,<br />

as well as to broader issues <strong>of</strong><br />

sharing medical data, <strong>of</strong> how<br />

health knowledge is defined and<br />

controlled, and what it means for<br />

quality <strong>of</strong> life.<br />

COMPASS<br />

COMPASS<br />

COMPASS<br />

What gets me through?<br />

What keeps me happy?<br />

What difference did<br />

something make?<br />

These are some <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> questions<br />

people with CF might ask when<br />

using <strong>the</strong> Compass app.<br />

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Testing and Reflection<br />

To prototype and test this design<br />

concept, I e-mailed a blogger who<br />

also lives with CF and is around <strong>the</strong><br />

same age as me. I briefly outlined<br />

<strong>the</strong> idea, and pointed out that<br />

<strong>the</strong>re is a question close both <strong>of</strong><br />

us seem to ponder frequently in<br />

relation to CF: What about doing<br />

a PhD? I knew this from her blog<br />

posts, and we arranged a phone<br />

call. The phone call lasted<br />

11 minutes and 32 seconds. I asked<br />

her to e-mail me her thoughts after:<br />

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"The first thing<br />

I noticed is that<br />

you make <strong>the</strong><br />

same noise midsentence,<br />

<strong>the</strong><br />

one when you<br />

take a strategic<br />

breathing<br />

pause and clear<br />

your throat <strong>of</strong><br />

annoying mucus. I<br />

didn't know o<strong>the</strong>r<br />

people did this! It<br />

was such a strange<br />

experience<br />

recognising this,<br />

like hearing a<br />

lost sibling."<br />

"I felt free. I<br />

didn't have<br />

to hide or be<br />

overly positive,<br />

and I could<br />

just mention<br />

potentially<br />

dying young.<br />

In fact, I didn't<br />

really have to<br />

mention it or<br />

spill it out, we<br />

both know. It<br />

was a relief to<br />

talk like this."<br />

"We came up with<br />

some new points<br />

I hadn't thought<br />

<strong>of</strong> before. But <strong>the</strong><br />

main thing I loved<br />

was that actually<br />

we didn't talk all<br />

that long about if<br />

it is possible, we<br />

quickly moved<br />

over to HOW it<br />

could be done.<br />

And wondering<br />

who might have<br />

done it, and what<br />

<strong>the</strong>ir health<br />

was like."<br />

"I was less worried<br />

you might laugh<br />

at my ideas or<br />

just make that<br />

worried face and<br />

tell me it will not<br />

be good for my<br />

health. My doctors'<br />

and family's<br />

opinion is really<br />

important to me,<br />

but sometimes you<br />

just need someone<br />

to understand that<br />

<strong>the</strong>re are o<strong>the</strong>r<br />

things you need<br />

to be happy not<br />

only healthy."<br />

Of course this is at best an<br />

approximation <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> concept<br />

described above, but I was excited<br />

to test it and curious about my own<br />

and my phone partner's experience<br />

and reaction. And it was very<br />

positive, for both <strong>of</strong> us. It would be<br />

interesting how this concept could<br />

integrate with new developments<br />

like <strong>the</strong> CF Trust Registry (appendix<br />

p. 18), or <strong>the</strong>ir initiatives around<br />

digital health. Given more time, it<br />

would be interesting to find out if<br />

Compass connected people with<br />

similar life expectancy estimates,<br />

as well as to hear how o<strong>the</strong>r parts<br />

<strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> healthcare system relate<br />

to this idea. And how <strong>the</strong> idea<br />

behind Compass could apply to<br />

wider healthcare contexts where<br />

relationships are changing, and<br />

where data is playing an increasing<br />

role, to add a layer <strong>of</strong> meaning,<br />

sensemaking, and wayfinding.<br />

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Appendix<br />

This includes references to o<strong>the</strong>r<br />

people’s work that shaped this<br />

project, as well as some <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> data<br />

I collected during my own research<br />

in more detail.<br />

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Image Credit<br />

IAN PETTIGREW<br />

http://www.ianpettigrew.com/<br />

Photographer Ian Pettigrew - who has CF himself - took<br />

portraits <strong>of</strong> women with CF for his book <strong>Salty</strong> Girls. It<br />

turned into an incredibly inspiring and powerful project<br />

that has made a huge difference to how I see myself<br />

as a person with CF and enjoyed worldwide attention.<br />

Ian generously allowed me to use his photos within my<br />

work. I am very grateful to him and <strong>the</strong> salty girls Bailey<br />

(Book 1, p. 16), Erin (Book 1, p. 19), and Amy (Book 1, p. 33).<br />

<strong>Salty</strong> Girls<br />

Imagine what it is like growing up as a woman<br />

in today’s society, where <strong>the</strong> media demands<br />

perfection, and where body-shaming has become<br />

all too prevalent. It is a constant struggle to maintain<br />

<strong>the</strong> concept <strong>of</strong> ‘beauty’. ​In this book <strong>the</strong> <strong>Salty</strong> Girls<br />

challenge this norm, and strive to put an end to body<br />

shaming. They embrace <strong>the</strong>ir body’s scars and all,<br />

to inspire women everywhere to do <strong>the</strong> same. These<br />

women truly are <strong>the</strong> epitome <strong>of</strong> remarkable strength,<br />

enormous resilience, and unique beauty both inside<br />

and out. Not only is this book about raising awareness<br />

for <strong>Cystic</strong> <strong>Fibrosis</strong>, but it can truly reach all females<br />

who have ever felt this way.<br />

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Expert<br />

Interview<br />

Summaries<br />

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Case Study<br />

Summaries<br />

European<br />

CF Society<br />

ecfs.eu<br />

CF Research News - Medical<br />

papers in plain language<br />

CF Research News publishes plain<br />

language versions <strong>of</strong> scientific work<br />

from <strong>the</strong> Journal <strong>of</strong> <strong>Cystic</strong> <strong>Fibrosis</strong> in<br />

pdf format. They aim to bridge <strong>the</strong><br />

gap between people with CF and<br />

<strong>the</strong> researchers investigating CF and<br />

how best to treat those with <strong>the</strong><br />

condition. They hope to reach<br />

patients, parents, relatives, friends,<br />

and caregivers.<br />

Nesta<br />

nesta.org.uk<br />

Computer games that heal you<br />

Imagine if you could play a computer<br />

game that healed you as you played.<br />

Sounds far-fetched? Computer<br />

game <strong>the</strong>rapy is a growing field that<br />

is still finding its feet. But my<br />

prediction is that 2016 will be <strong>the</strong><br />

year that doctors start prescribing<br />

games to patients.<br />

Post Biotics<br />

post-biotics.com<br />

Post / Biotics Toolkit - What if<br />

<strong>the</strong> next antibiotic is in<br />

your backyard?<br />

A new toolkit called Post/Biotics is<br />

designed to let citizen scientists<br />

—including elementary school<br />

students—help in <strong>the</strong> process <strong>of</strong><br />

discovering those new drugs. It<br />

includes a small pop-up lab that<br />

anyone can use to test samples and<br />

<strong>the</strong>n send results, along with a photo<br />

and GPS location, to an online<br />

database. Citizen scientists test <strong>the</strong>ir<br />

samples against non-pathogenic<br />

bacteria strains provided with<br />

<strong>the</strong> toolkit.<br />

Mia Cinelli<br />

miacinelli.com/The-Weight<br />

Mia Cinelli’s limb like<br />

weighted blanket is designed<br />

to ease feelings <strong>of</strong> grief<br />

Following <strong>the</strong> death <strong>of</strong> a loved one,<br />

American artist and designer Mia<br />

Cinelli created this ‘weighted<br />

comfort object’ that could simulate<br />

<strong>the</strong> feeling <strong>of</strong> being hugged.<br />

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NHS & Scottish Opera<br />

breathcycle.com<br />

Breath Cycle - Singing and<br />

<strong>Cystic</strong> <strong>Fibrosis</strong><br />

Scottish Opera and Gartnavel<br />

General Hospital <strong>Cystic</strong> <strong>Fibrosis</strong><br />

Service have been working<br />

toge<strong>the</strong>r since early 2013 to<br />

explore whe<strong>the</strong>r learning<br />

classical singing techniques,<br />

including breath control, can<br />

improve <strong>the</strong> wellbeing <strong>of</strong> cystic<br />

fibrosis patients. Due to <strong>the</strong> high risk <strong>of</strong> infection for those with<br />

cystic fibrosis, <strong>the</strong> project also explored how patients might<br />

interact safely with each o<strong>the</strong>r, using <strong>the</strong> internet as a means<br />

<strong>of</strong> meeting, learning and building new communities.<br />

Quantified Self<br />

quantifiedself.com<br />

Quanitified Self<br />

- self knowledge<br />

through numbers<br />

A movement consisting <strong>of</strong><br />

user communities <strong>of</strong><br />

self-tracking tools. They<br />

aim to build a culture <strong>of</strong><br />

access to one’s own<br />

personal data and <strong>of</strong><br />

exploring <strong>the</strong> benefits <strong>of</strong><br />

shared self-collected<br />

data to solve complex<br />

health challenges.<br />

E-Patients<br />

e-patients.net<br />

E-Patients - because health<br />

pr<strong>of</strong>essionals can’t do it alone<br />

A movement advocating and<br />

facilitating participatory medicine.<br />

This is a model <strong>of</strong> cooperative health<br />

care that seeks to achieve active<br />

involvement by patients,<br />

pr<strong>of</strong>essionals, caregivers, and o<strong>the</strong>rs<br />

across <strong>the</strong> continuum <strong>of</strong> care on all<br />

issues related to an individual's<br />

health. Participatory medicine is an<br />

ethical approach to care that also<br />

holds promise to improve outcomes,<br />

reduce medical errors, increase<br />

patient satisfaction and improve <strong>the</strong><br />

cost <strong>of</strong> care.<br />

CF Unite<br />

cfunite.org<br />

<strong>Cystic</strong> <strong>Fibrosis</strong> Priority<br />

Setting Partnership<br />

In CF care <strong>the</strong>re are many situations<br />

where we do not know which<br />

treatment is best. Over 300<br />

important research questions are<br />

currently unanswered. Presently<br />

researchers choose <strong>the</strong>ir projects<br />

because <strong>the</strong>y are fashionable, <strong>of</strong><br />

personal interest or <strong>of</strong> interest to<br />

funders including <strong>the</strong><br />

pharmaceutical industry. The<br />

priorities <strong>of</strong> patients, carers and<br />

clinicians are <strong>of</strong>ten overlooked. By<br />

involving in producing a priority list<br />

<strong>of</strong> uncertainties important to <strong>the</strong>m,<br />

this projects aims to change this.<br />

The Blazer Experiment -<br />

On how police uniforms<br />

represent <strong>the</strong>ir relations<br />

with <strong>the</strong> community<br />

In 1968, <strong>the</strong> police department<br />

in Menlo Park, California<br />

decided to reform <strong>the</strong><br />

department. Its chief wanted<br />

to rebuild trust with <strong>the</strong><br />

community — and one <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />

most ground-breaking and<br />

controversial changes was <strong>the</strong><br />

new blazer-style uniform he<br />

implemented. It tried to<br />

change how police are seen<br />

and see <strong>the</strong>mselves. But can a<br />

new uniform really change <strong>the</strong><br />

culture <strong>of</strong> a whole police<br />

department?<br />

Menlo Park Police department<br />

99percentinvisible.org/episode/<strong>the</strong>-blazer-experiment/<br />

US National Insitutes <strong>of</strong> Health NIH<br />

medstarhealth.org<br />

‘Making Health’ - a celebration <strong>of</strong><br />

how tinkering, technology, and<br />

design tools are transforming<br />

healthcare<br />

An event bringing toge<strong>the</strong>r clinicians,<br />

scientists, inventors, and makers to<br />

explore how do-it-yourself, design<br />

tools, and technology can quickly<br />

transform ideas to working<br />

prototypes and innovate healthcare.<br />

Open APS<br />

openaps.org<br />

Do it yourself pancreas<br />

- we are not waiting<br />

Using a raspberry pi and publishing<br />

<strong>the</strong> DIY blueprints, Dana Lewis has<br />

built her own artificial pancreas<br />

system. Tapping into <strong>the</strong> potential <strong>of</strong><br />

patient innovators and independent<br />

researchers, she started a movement<br />

<strong>of</strong> DIY pancreas builder who refuse to<br />

wait until similar technology has been<br />

FDA approved and commercialized<br />

through traditional processes. They<br />

<strong>of</strong>ten mean expensive solutions that<br />

do not take <strong>the</strong> dignity <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> patient<br />

into account.<br />

Swedish Tourist Association<br />

<strong>the</strong>swedishnumber.com<br />

The Swedish Number -<br />

get connected to a<br />

random Swede and<br />

talk about anything<br />

An initiative by <strong>the</strong><br />

Swedish Tourist<br />

Association, this project<br />

encourages people to<br />

find out more about<br />

Sweden in a playful and<br />

personal way. With a total<br />

<strong>of</strong> 187632 incoming calls<br />

in <strong>the</strong> 79 days it was open<br />

for, it has proved to<br />

successfully tap into<br />

people’s curiosity.<br />

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A selection <strong>of</strong> results from <strong>the</strong> “Online survey to gain<br />

understanding <strong>of</strong> what people with cystic<br />

fibrosis aged 16+ would like to learn about <strong>the</strong>ir life<br />

expectancy and o<strong>the</strong>r outcomes”<br />

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Life Expectancy Survey<br />

DR RUTH KEOGH<br />

http://blogs.lshtm.ac.uk/ruthkeogh/<br />

Dr Ruth Keogh - researcher at <strong>the</strong> London School <strong>of</strong><br />

Hygiene and Tropical Medicine - is doing very interesting<br />

research to understand what people with CF would like<br />

learn about <strong>the</strong>ir life expectancy, how <strong>the</strong>y would like to<br />

do so, and how things are at <strong>the</strong> moment.<br />

It was very encouraging to find out about a thought<br />

provoking and considered project dealing with <strong>the</strong> more<br />

social but just as challenging side <strong>of</strong> life with CF. Dr Keogh<br />

kindly provided me with a preview <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> results from her<br />

survey (Book 1, p. 38), and details <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> questions and<br />

upcoming results can be found here:<br />

http://blogs.lshtm.ac.uk/ruthkeogh/cf-onlinequestionnaire/<br />

A total <strong>of</strong> 85 people completed <strong>the</strong> questionnaire. There<br />

were more females among <strong>the</strong> respondents than males<br />

(61.2% versus 38.8%). Respondents ranged in age from<br />

16 to 65 and <strong>the</strong> median age was 30. The majority <strong>of</strong><br />

respondents (73%) were aged 20-40.<br />

25% <strong>of</strong> individuals said that <strong>the</strong>ir doctor/CF care team had<br />

provided <strong>the</strong>m with information on <strong>the</strong>ir life expectancy as<br />

part <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong>ir routine care, while 66% had not been provided<br />

with such information and 9% were not sure.<br />

27% <strong>of</strong> individuals had actively sought information on life<br />

expectancy from <strong>the</strong>ir doctor/CF care team and 74% <strong>of</strong><br />

those had actually received some information.<br />

71% <strong>of</strong> individuals had sought information on <strong>the</strong>ir life<br />

expectancy from sources o<strong>the</strong>r than <strong>the</strong>ir doctor/CF care<br />

team. Over 25% <strong>of</strong> respondents had sought information on<br />

<strong>the</strong>ir life expectancy from each <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> following sources:<br />

“Reports from <strong>the</strong> <strong>Cystic</strong> <strong>Fibrosis</strong> Trust/<strong>the</strong> <strong>Cystic</strong> <strong>Fibrosis</strong><br />

Trust website” (41%), “Research literature” (39%), “Patient<br />

websites/forums” (29%), “O<strong>the</strong>r internet sites” (26%).<br />

73% <strong>of</strong> respondents reported that <strong>the</strong>y would like to<br />

receive more personalised information about <strong>the</strong>ir<br />

life expectancy. Of <strong>the</strong>se, 40% would prefer to receive<br />

this information only from <strong>the</strong>ir doctor/CF care team,<br />

32% would prefer to receive it only by <strong>the</strong>mselves, for<br />

example via an online tool, and 27.4% would like to receive<br />

such information both/ei<strong>the</strong>r from <strong>the</strong>ir doctor and by<br />

<strong>the</strong>mselves.<br />

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Interview with<br />

Oli Rayner who<br />

lives with CF<br />

Are you regularly in touch with o<strong>the</strong>r people with CF,<br />

and if yes, how? (E-mail, messages, phone calls, in<br />

person...)<br />

I was born in 1975 and so when I was growing up<br />

we did not have <strong>the</strong> internet, social media, skype or<br />

mobile phones. I only started using email when I got to<br />

university in 2004. Even when new technology came<br />

along I avoided talking to o<strong>the</strong>r people with CF outside<br />

<strong>the</strong> hospital environment because all <strong>the</strong> people with<br />

CF I’d got to know when I was younger (whom I had met<br />

at hospital when less was known about cross-infection<br />

and segregation was not so strict) had passed away and<br />

I found it extremely upsetting. Also, <strong>the</strong> only time I saw<br />

anyone else with CF was ei<strong>the</strong>r when <strong>the</strong>y were sick<br />

in hospital or when <strong>the</strong>re was some media coverage<br />

<strong>of</strong> a very poorly child with CF who was desperate for<br />

a transplant or access to some service/medication.<br />

I thought any contact with o<strong>the</strong>rs with CF would just<br />

depress me. In <strong>the</strong> last 5 years or so, I think things have<br />

changed enormously. People with CF are living longer<br />

and fuller lives. Social media has made it easy to get<br />

to know lots <strong>of</strong> o<strong>the</strong>r people with CF <strong>of</strong> all ages and all<br />

101<br />

backgrounds and see people doing really well at things<br />

as well as not so well. It is not all bad news now. I am<br />

now in regular contact with o<strong>the</strong>rs with CF and I use<br />

different media for different purposes. Typically, I would<br />

probably “meet” new people with CF through social<br />

media and <strong>the</strong>n, having developed a level <strong>of</strong> trust and<br />

mutual interest, I would also use email, telephone, text,<br />

WhatsApp and Skype-like tools.<br />

If yes, why do you keep in touch and what difference<br />

does this make to you? If no, why not, or what holds you<br />

back?<br />

I talk to o<strong>the</strong>rs with CF because it helps me to understand<br />

my disease and what it means. I suppose I am always<br />

trying to figure out “what is <strong>the</strong> CF” and “what is me”! I<br />

also like to try to help o<strong>the</strong>r people with CF (and young<br />

parents <strong>of</strong> children <strong>of</strong> CF) where I have some experience<br />

or perspective that might be relevant to <strong>the</strong>m. It is always<br />

good to share problems to see if it is a more general<br />

issue that we can solve toge<strong>the</strong>r or, indeed, find out if<br />

someone else has already come up with a solution and<br />

can share know-how. I also do some patient advocacy<br />

both independently and with <strong>the</strong> CF Trust and building<br />

relationships with o<strong>the</strong>rs with CF and understanding<br />

how <strong>the</strong>y feel about things is really important because<br />

CF affects different people in different ways and it is<br />

important to know what really matters to peers and<br />

whe<strong>the</strong>r views are representative or more subjective. If I<br />

am in a meeting or at an event (and I am <strong>the</strong> only person<br />

with CF able to be <strong>the</strong>re due to cross-infection) I <strong>of</strong>ten<br />

feel a heavy responsibility to represent a wider point <strong>of</strong><br />

view ra<strong>the</strong>r than just my own.<br />

I suppose I do hold myself back a bit because I don’t<br />

want CF stuff to dominate my life too much and I suppose<br />

I am still reluctant to get to know anyone with CF too well<br />

because <strong>of</strong> my earlier experience <strong>of</strong> CF friends passing<br />

away.<br />

Do you have any 'CF idols' - people with CF you know<br />

about and you look up to? What does this mean to you?<br />

I never used to know anyone with CF who was doing well<br />

when I was younger. In <strong>the</strong> last 5 years I have become<br />

aware <strong>of</strong> several pwCF who are doing really well and I<br />

do admire what <strong>the</strong>y do. I would not call <strong>the</strong>m idols but<br />

sometimes <strong>the</strong>y do inspire and reassure me. Seeing<br />

people with CF do well makes me feel stronger. I also get<br />

a lot <strong>of</strong> pleasure from seeing o<strong>the</strong>rs with CF doing well<br />

in life because it seems to signify progress and I love <strong>the</strong><br />

idea <strong>of</strong> progress! I won’t name names but some <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong>m<br />

have become friends. Some <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong>m are pr<strong>of</strong>essional<br />

sports people, fitness gurus or champion bodybuilders<br />

which is fun to see but <strong>the</strong> ones I really admire are those<br />

who have built a life for <strong>the</strong>mselves and managed to<br />

integrate a career, family and taking care <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong>ir health.<br />

I think those people are <strong>the</strong> most impressive. I hate to<br />

think kids with CF see <strong>the</strong> bodybuilder types and are left<br />

with <strong>the</strong> impression that <strong>the</strong>y can do well with CF but only<br />

if <strong>the</strong>y become a bodybuilder. I hope one day kids with<br />

CF can look around and see that CF is compatible with<br />

normal life as long as <strong>the</strong>y are sensible and prepared to<br />

work a bit harder that o<strong>the</strong>rs.<br />

How do you make or have you made decisions<br />

concerning your future? Do you consult doctors /<br />

friends / o<strong>the</strong>r people with CF / ... when you think<br />

about what is possible when living with CF?<br />

I have never really thought about what is possible living<br />

with CF. When I was born my parents were told I would<br />

not make it to 10. When I was 10, we were told I would<br />

not make to 16. When I was 16, my CF consultant told<br />

me I would be lucky to get to 25 and that I would need a<br />

heart and lung transplant by 21. Based on this, <strong>the</strong> pace<br />

<strong>of</strong> medical progress and my experience <strong>of</strong> how different<br />

people are affected differently, I don’t think anyone can<br />

say with any confidence what life with CF will be like. I<br />

have always just tried to understand what I can do and<br />

what I cannot do and I use that to plan what I will do.<br />

When my capabilities change, I try to figure out whe<strong>the</strong>r<br />

it is a new normal or just a bad patch and, if necessary,<br />

I change my plans. I have had to adapt my life/work<br />

several times over <strong>the</strong> years, especially since CF started<br />

to affect me much more from my early 30s. I talk to my<br />

CF team, family and close friends. I had some useful<br />

discussions with tutors at Uni. I have also had some very<br />

useful conversations and advice from work colleagues<br />

over <strong>the</strong> years – I have always been very open with<br />

employers about my CF. I don’t talk to o<strong>the</strong>rs with CF very<br />

much about persona decisions/plans because none <strong>of</strong><br />

<strong>the</strong>m know me well enough.<br />

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Impressions<br />

from Digital<br />

Ethnography<br />

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“However, it is difficult to be an adult - to be married, to<br />

work, to better myself, and to plan for <strong>the</strong> future - all<br />

while managing a complex and time-consuming chronic<br />

disease with no guarantees. I fail more than I succeed,<br />

but I plan to enjoy every single day I wake up with breath.”<br />

"Even if you are<br />

in pain, <strong>of</strong>ten<br />

<strong>the</strong> physical pain<br />

is less than <strong>the</strong><br />

psychological<br />

pain and fear<br />

that comes<br />

with dreading<br />

what <strong>the</strong> future<br />

might bring."<br />

“The photo reminds me <strong>of</strong> a<br />

lesson I need to be mindful <strong>of</strong><br />

every single day. That lesson is<br />

<strong>the</strong> notion that we can plan or<br />

dream <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> way we want our<br />

lives, our time, or our energy to be<br />

spent, but in reality sometimes,<br />

our ideas will never come to<br />

fruition despite our efforts.”<br />

105<br />

"You are not<br />

completely healthy<br />

at this point on<br />

<strong>the</strong> horizontal axis<br />

<strong>of</strong> time. Yes, your<br />

body has weird and<br />

unusual chloride<br />

channels lining its<br />

epi<strong>the</strong>lium. But is<br />

your brain 'sick'? Is<br />

your heart 'sick'? Are<br />

our bones intact?<br />

Can you see? Are<br />

you breathing? Can<br />

you love?"<br />

"The CF Trust is<br />

focused on getting<br />

<strong>the</strong> magic pill, but<br />

in <strong>the</strong> process,<br />

has it neglected<br />

and ignored what<br />

we would call <strong>the</strong><br />

rest <strong>of</strong> our 'quality<br />

<strong>of</strong> life'".<br />

"But life is not all about <strong>the</strong><br />

numbers <strong>of</strong> tomorrows... it is<br />

also important to think about<br />

<strong>the</strong> quality <strong>of</strong> those tomorrows.<br />

If I can't spend my 'tomorrows'<br />

deciding for myself how to live,<br />

<strong>the</strong>n what is <strong>the</strong> point exactly?"<br />

“Acting as my own head<br />

nurse, I decide when to<br />

hook-up, what to eat,<br />

where I can and cannot<br />

go, and who to see. I<br />

govern <strong>the</strong> controllable<br />

that inpatient care can<br />

unfortunately strip away<br />

from its guests.”<br />

“I have learned over<br />

<strong>the</strong> years to go into<br />

appointments with<br />

little expectation, that<br />

way I am able to focus<br />

on <strong>the</strong> positives <strong>of</strong><br />

a bad appointment<br />

or celebrate <strong>the</strong><br />

victories <strong>of</strong> a good<br />

appointment without<br />

feeling weighed down.”<br />

"Do I like taking a bazillion<br />

drugs? No. Do I like poking<br />

myself with little needles?<br />

Um, no. Do I fight fatigue? All<br />

<strong>the</strong> time. Do I always feel like I<br />

am forgetting something? You<br />

betcha. There are definitely<br />

moments where I want to<br />

throw my hands up, cry, and<br />

give up. It's exhausting to do<br />

this everyday. It is even more<br />

exhausting to do this and act<br />

like I am normal. Breaks do<br />

not exist and CF never packs a<br />

suitcase to go on vacation. I ask<br />

<strong>the</strong> Lord each day to help me<br />

find joy in those moments and<br />

thank him for<br />

<strong>the</strong> ability to live<br />

a remarkable life<br />

in <strong>the</strong> midst <strong>of</strong> a<br />

failing body.<br />

He grants it."<br />

"It is in <strong>the</strong>se moments that<br />

I realize how little control I<br />

have in my own body. How I<br />

spend my days strategizing<br />

and how some days that<br />

perfect strategy doesn't<br />

even come close to fruition.<br />

It is discouraging. I want to<br />

keep up with my husband<br />

and prove that I am fine, that<br />

CF plays such a small role<br />

physically that I am able to<br />

push on. In reality, this is far<br />

from <strong>the</strong> truth and my supply<br />

<strong>of</strong> oomph empties long<br />

before <strong>the</strong> project is finished<br />

usually."<br />

“I adapted to dying, and<br />

adapted well. I had after<br />

all, spent my entire life<br />

adapting to every possible<br />

circumstance where most<br />

were out <strong>of</strong> my control.”<br />

"Our lives<br />

will always<br />

be slightly<br />

different than<br />

our peers in<br />

similar stages<br />

<strong>of</strong> life. Our<br />

priorities and<br />

goals have to<br />

be focused<br />

and planned<br />

in an effort to<br />

experience it all<br />

despite CF, and<br />

sometimes, our<br />

goals will be<br />

rewritten."<br />

"Sometimes I open <strong>the</strong> drawer with my daily medications and<br />

just stare at it. I can feel my body wanting to shut <strong>the</strong> drawer,<br />

erase <strong>the</strong> responsibility from my mind, and walk away to<br />

pursue something else spontaneously, instead <strong>of</strong> doing<br />

ano<strong>the</strong>r round <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong>rapy or choking down ano<strong>the</strong>r handful<br />

<strong>of</strong> pills. I also know that if I did this and ignored my schedule,<br />

I wouldn't live. Weeks filled with schedules, lists, and mental<br />

alarms are a matter <strong>of</strong> life and death for me. So, I comply,<br />

sometimes begrudgingly and with an ungrateful heart."<br />

106


"Parker J.<br />

Palmer wrote<br />

that, 'The<br />

human soul<br />

doesn't want to<br />

be advised or<br />

fixed or saved.<br />

It simply wants<br />

to be witnessed<br />

- to be seen,<br />

heard and<br />

companioned<br />

exactly as it is.'"<br />

"As a young girl,<br />

I was acutely aware<br />

<strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> difference<br />

between being<br />

treated as a<br />

patient and being<br />

treated as a<br />

human being. I had<br />

always wanted<br />

to be treated as<br />

a person who<br />

had something<br />

to contribute to<br />

society, not just as<br />

a disease. When<br />

you're a body in a<br />

bed, your sense<br />

<strong>of</strong> identity is <strong>of</strong>ten<br />

stripped so far<br />

back that you<br />

don't recognise<br />

yourself."<br />

"I knew it was time. It was time to take <strong>the</strong> next<br />

step in my care and that meant a portacath. The<br />

idea <strong>of</strong> having a port always weakened my soul<br />

and I was disappointed in myself. A port meant my<br />

body would be altered on <strong>the</strong> outside and I would<br />

physically look irregular. It meant I was really sick<br />

and my disease was in fact progressing. It meant<br />

I lost control and <strong>the</strong> force I battled to hold <strong>of</strong>f<br />

everyday was gaining ground. It meant CF was<br />

winning and I was ultimately losing. Ports were<br />

for very sick cancer patients, certainly not for me."<br />

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"<strong>Salty</strong> Girls has<br />

played a big part<br />

in this change. In<br />

April, I posed for a<br />

photo book about<br />

women fighting<br />

CF and <strong>the</strong> many<br />

challenges we<br />

face physically,<br />

mentally, and<br />

emotionally. It<br />

was my first time<br />

directly meeting<br />

o<strong>the</strong>r women with<br />

CF and knowing<br />

that we had similar<br />

scars, schedules,<br />

thoughts, fears,<br />

and never ending<br />

coughs. After<br />

<strong>the</strong> shoot, I got<br />

in <strong>the</strong> car with<br />

my husband; my<br />

heart felt full and<br />

I smiled,<br />

‘They all<br />

coughed<br />

like me.' It<br />

sounds silly<br />

now, but<br />

that brief<br />

sense <strong>of</strong><br />

community<br />

has changed<br />

me forever."<br />

"'Sorry we haven't been able to get you lungs. i'm sorry<br />

we can't save you.' I knew he had done his best and I<br />

appreciated his candour - something that had been so<br />

sorely lacking with <strong>the</strong> team who were looking after me<br />

at <strong>the</strong> hospital. That he had shared his humanness with<br />

me, as opposed to just being my doctor, meant a lot."<br />

I planned my<br />

funeral. Not a<br />

common thing for a<br />

21-year old to do, but<br />

it had been rolling<br />

around my head since<br />

I was a little girl.<br />

For me, getting that<br />

out <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> way so I<br />

could focus on living<br />

was essential in<br />

getting on with life<br />

while I still had it."<br />

"The people who<br />

did talk about dying<br />

and death were my<br />

nurses. There was<br />

this no BS thing<br />

between us, and<br />

I could talk and<br />

make inappropriate<br />

jokes about my own<br />

death to my hearts'<br />

content. But no one<br />

ever came to talk<br />

to me about dying,<br />

and for me that<br />

was disappointing<br />

because what was<br />

unfolding was really<br />

quite remarkable.<br />

And so it was<br />

something I had to<br />

do on my own.<br />

"The people who did talk about dying and death were my<br />

nurses. There was this no BS thing between us, and I could<br />

talk and make inappropriate jokes about my own death to<br />

my hearts' content. But no one ever came to talk to me about<br />

dying, and for me that was disappointing because what<br />

was unfolding was really quite remarkable. And so it was<br />

something I had to do on my own. I planned my funeral.<br />

"I believe I have<br />

used optimism to<br />

shield people I care<br />

about (including<br />

myself) from <strong>the</strong><br />

reality and pain<br />

<strong>of</strong> CF. Because <strong>of</strong><br />

this, <strong>the</strong> majority<br />

<strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> people I<br />

surround myself<br />

with have little<br />

understanding <strong>of</strong><br />

what having CF<br />

actually looks like.<br />

They see <strong>the</strong> sugarcoated,<br />

sunny<br />

explanation that I<br />

allow <strong>the</strong>m to see,<br />

but not <strong>the</strong> dark,<br />

isolating side."<br />

“When<br />

you have<br />

CF, you<br />

grow up<br />

dying."<br />

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Ute Schauberger<br />

Design Innovation and Citizenship<br />

2015 / 2016

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