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what she holds Paperback – September 7, 2020

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what she holds, following closely behind Phelps' debut book, what holds her (Main Street Rag, 2019), explores the process of a woman-child becoming fully woman, reasoning, remembering, processing the often difficult, sometimes violent, and always complex father-daughter relationship. Any woman who has both loved and hated her father will laugh and cry and, hopefully, heal as she reads this intensely personal poetic memoir, as it calls her to a higher love.
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what she holds is a brave and masterful book, artistically rendered, an extraordinary record of the soul on a mission.

~Martha K. Grant, author,
A Curse on the Fairest Joys

The whole work is a mint, where thoughts and feelings are coined. Poetry must be partly feeling and partly thoughtful. This is exactly
what she holds is about. A simple beautiful piece of art.~Jacob Kobina Ayiah Mensah, artist, poet, journalist, cultural theorist, & algebraist

Phelps is not merely writing poems; she is delivering a manual of healing and an opus about how a child survives despite the horrors that live in her home.

~Leslie Ferguson, poet

From the Author

In its writing, what she holds served as both process and transformational tool for healing a most difficult, love-hate relationship I had with my father.  The work is neither complaint nor accusation, but statement:  record/witness/observer/teacher/healer.My hope is that others who have suffered with their love for an abusive father will benefit and perhaps heal along with me as they engage with this most complex work of art that indeed, helped me recover.d. ellis phelps, 2020

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  • ASIN ‏ : ‎ B08HGTJP58
  • Publisher ‏ : ‎ Independently published
  • Publication date ‏ : ‎ September 7, 2020
  • Language ‏ : ‎ English
  • Print length ‏ : ‎ 118 pages
  • ISBN-13 ‏ : ‎ 979-8672793627
  • Item Weight ‏ : ‎ 6.6 ounces
  • Dimensions ‏ : ‎ 6 x 0.3 x 9 inches
  • Customer Reviews:
    5.0 out of 5 stars 7 ratings

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d. ellis phelps
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My work has appeared widely online and in print. Go ahead! Google me. ;)

I'm a Texas woman. I've lived in Irving (near Dallas, where I grew up), Austin (where I graduated from UT in '74), Houston (where I married hubby number one), San Antonio (where my daughter was born) and Bulverde (in the Hill Country north of San Antonio).

I've lived in Bulverde since 1982 surrounded by cactus, limestone, opossum, racoon, white-tail, skunk, hawks, ravens, vultures, wild hogs, coyote, and even mountain lion. I've been married to my hubby for forty years and we raised three kids together who are now grown with kids of their own. I have three g-sons and one g-daughter!

I am introverted, creative, complicated, sensitive, intense, stubborn, serious, playful & compassionate; I love nature and wild places (you'll find lots of this in my poems).

I am the author of four collections of poetry: what she holds (Moon Shadow Sanctuary Press, 2020), what holds her (Main Street Rag, 2019) words gone wild (Kelsay Books 2021) and of failure & faith (Kelsay Books, 2023).

what holds her is a collection of ecstatic verse that I claim (and maintain) came to me and that I took down as a sort of dictation as I processed the death of both my parents within twenty-nine days of one another in 2009. I believe it holds a profound teaching that was meant especially for me and for me to share with the world.

In its writing, what she holds, my second collection, served as both process and transformative tool, helping me to heal the difficult relationship I had with my father, posthumously. Any woman who has experienced a form of love-hate will strongly relate and hopefully, be encouraged to heal as well.

I wrote the almost-a-memoir novel Making Room for George: a love story (Moon Shadow Sanctuary Press, 2016) as a way to process what was happening to my life when my father-in-law, George, moved in with us. It's a tender, humorous, bitter-sweet story of lives unraveling: his and mine.

words gone wild is a collection of rhymed verse for children, poems I've written over the past several decades.

of failure & faith explores the notion of spirituality as activism and includes many Texas themed poems of place.

Finally, I am founder and managing editor of Moon Shadow Sanctuary Press and of the digital fws: international journal of literature & art. I have served as managing editor for five hard-copy anthologies: The Larger Geometry: poems for peace (peaceCenter Books 2018), Through Layered Limestone: a Texas Hill Country Anthology of place (Friends of the Boerne Library, 2019), Easing the Edges (Friends of the Boerne Libray, 2021), purifying wind (MSSP, 2020),and woodlands (MSSP, 2022). Each purchase of the first three collections directly benefits either the peaceCenter San Antonio or the Patrick Heath Public Library in Boerne, Texas.

fws: international journal of literature & art publishes bi-annually and sponsors the Writer's Idea Box.

I am delighted you are here. Thanks for your support of my work in the world. Let me know what you think. Ask me a question. I'll tell you almost anything!

Namste,

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  • Reviewed in the United States on February 25, 2022
    Phelps knows well how to turn a phrase. This collection delivers a sense of retribution for any reader who stems from an abusive family. The author presents herself as one who has witnessed her mother’s abuse and suffered her own, at her father’s hand.

    Phelps offers the title of her collection and each poem in lower case. She uses effective visual and poetic devices: spatial separations on the printed page, the forward slash, the tilde, the em dash, varied indentations, italicizations, caesurae, and fragmented phrases. Her concern for meter takes second place to the delivery of her message. Her titles and use of metaphors clearly indicate the interruption she experienced at the death of her father, to whom she dedicated this collection.

    Descriptions of the father / daughter relationship, in her opening section, leave no doubt about the dysfunctions operating within the persona’s family and regrettably indicate unresolved flaws in the relationship after the father’s death.

    The poem, “uninvited,” exhibits fear, loss, regret, and desire. It is addressed to the very father who has incited the family pain. On a visit home, the daughter having matured into womanhood, suffers the father’s comment, “you’re getting fat.” She regards the father’s disgust as an “alchemical fire” of condemnation. This phrase is a fine metaphor for the abuse experienced. I read the volume seated in brightest sunshine, but the darkness of Phelps’ imagery threatened to overcome the light.

    In her fourth section “what the darkness hid,” the poet gives further testimony to the abuse. Then at page 92, a new confidence, with its hint at optimism, steps into her white-spaced scenes.

    Whether you are fond of confessional poetry, or not, Phelps’ arrangement of words brings its own rewards to the attentive reader, whether we name it an “amalgam / —mining gold” or “hand hewn / open mouthed,” to borrow phrases from the poet.

    Throughout, Phelps’ message and her grasping for reconciliation resounds. In her Afterword, she calls on us to be mirrors for one another, to choose compassion, and to practice forgiveness. That message works well for this reader.
  • Reviewed in the United States on October 31, 2020
    what she holds is a brave and masterful book, artistically rendered, an extraordinary record of the soul on a mission. The book’s important Afterword documents the trajectory of this journey to recover and heal a fraught and complicated relationship with the father, but there is power here also in the visual presentation. The poet/artist’s choice of generous white space, surrounding, carefully shaped, has the effect of offering a buffer for the text, a protective container, to ‘hold’ the narrator as she navigates this minefield of memory. And it serves to lead the reader gently into the sometimes difficult vignettes. This is a multi-layered courageous presentation.

    --Martha K. Grant, author, A Curse on the Fairest Joys
  • Reviewed in the United States on February 24, 2021
    Really moving, gripping poetry memoir about the author's coming to terms with her abusive father's life and death. Phelps is a master of wringing vivid scenes from short, spare lines. I was really struck by her use of white space as painful pause or ellipse, a catching of breath that allows her to tell a story that is at once fragmentary and recursive--whose fragments circle back to the same scenes, revealing a little more each time (the way we approach and process trauma). I wouldn't describe many poetry collections as page turners, but this one I would! The individual pieces hang together as one story, which pulls at you like undertow to keep reading.
  • Reviewed in the United States on December 15, 2020
    This book of poems presents an amazing, emotional journey. Little written, much said. Even the poems' arrangement on the pages is a form of art. This becomes an enjoyment as the reader paces through the book, carried by evocative images that suggest a most personal reflection of the writer.
  • Reviewed in the United States on July 11, 2021
    I loved this book so much for its stark mood and hauntingly beautiful and courageous story. The author says just as much in the white space as she does in words, revealing an unforgettable story about grief and acceptance.
  • Reviewed in the United States on November 23, 2020
    D. Ellis Phelps’s poems are haunting, stark, and poignant. Her deft employment of form and space masterfully underscore the horror of abuse. She spins poetry out of pain, and the result is literary gold!